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After almost a whole year of isolating I'm lowkey back to social media! I still yet have to post again, but I'm updating my sites finally :>
Posting honestly makes me super scared and anxious, hence why I'm updating my sites first hehe
I've been playing a lot of ffxiv on the background too, I found a nice FC and community and honestly it helped me a lot with my anxiety ><
I've been feeling a lot better tbh, this year I spent it a lot being in and out of the psych ward constantly, being a danger to myself and others...but it's going a lot better now!! I really hope it continues like this ;v;
Anyways, I might open comms on the 15th of this month!! Only 3 slots tho, I don't want to burn out again qwq
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FFXIV art I've done this year~

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It’s been some hard days, a hard start of the year in general (´ . .̫ . `) it came with a lot of excitement but now I mostly feel anxious and paranoid of everything around me... It's hard, I have a lot of work to do but can't focus... My brain is just stuck in a loop of bad decisions and even worse attempts at fixing everything all at once,,, idk, I just feel really lost? I miss having a real passion for drawing, now it's all work art and even if I appreciate the support, I just find myself in that loop over and over again
Recently I've been dealing with a lot of trauma I wasn't even ready to speak out loud, so it made me cry an entire ocean and now I feel all drowsy in a bad way(´°̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥｀) I'm really not ready to even go to therapy, so I wanted to write it down...but that was even harder.
The idea of those traumas being recorder- being seen and read and heard makes me want to puke (╯﹏╰)b so I didn't write anything...and I don't want to have it in my mind until I manage to get an appointment (if my hand could just move to press the send request button) so,,, I'll put some music and fill my brain with the lyrics(´ω｀)
I'm hungry, but I don't really wanna eat so instead of a healthy lunch I'll just get pudding 🍮(⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)🥄
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Some wips from today~

♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡ Happy new year and site release!!!
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Finally it's 2025, I honestly never thought I would be alive until now, long enough to make this site!!
I've been on the internet since I was around 5 years old, my first memories are about playing neopets and dress up games...but sadly I don't have much other memories! My memory is reaaaaally bad, so, I decided to create this space to write and link and post about basically...everything!
I've always liked the idea of an online blog or diary, but always found the idea of coding too difficult, and with irl diaries I always write one entry promising I will fill the whole year, but I always fail lol
SO!!! a couple of weeks ago I got obsessed with carrds-- I've made carrds before but never one so big! So I put hands into work, and this little realm was created :3
The purpose? To leave my visible mark on the internet, an archive of things past, present, and future!
I've lost almost 2 decades of internet presence because I never archived my stuff and even deleted accounts, lost hard drives, traditional drawing folders...so I said no more!!! This site will host all of that and nothing will get lost again!!!!
And why release it in new year if it's not finished? Well, the thing is, this site will never get finished!! My original idea was of finishing EVERYTHING and then releasing it, only making small updates in case I misspelled something or the embeds weren't working correctly, but the more I kept adding the more I realized this site is too humongous to make that happen xD and I also decided to have this blog space, so it'll get updated basically every week, hopefully lol
We could say this site is in pre-alpha state (?
So now my new goal is: not giving up loooool
And I guess that's my general new year resolution too!!! Just don't give up!!!! Even if things are so boring and hurt so much !!!!!
To be honest, last year I spent it completely depressed, almost not able to work at all, so, this year I just don't wanna give up. On this site, or my work, or even life-- so let's see where this year takes us!!! <3
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Beautiful art I got of my OCs/selfships during the last days of 2024 <333